| The weather's nicer, and I'm in a nicer mood. But I really need to accomplish somethings. I need money. And I really need to start eating healthier. I was sick for awhile, and it all came back and I felt like puking the whole night. I need to watch what I eat, exercise, and idk. I'm thinking about giving up red meat. I don't need extra hormones in my body, I'm already on birth control. And once I lose weight, I'm going to buy myself some new clothes. But I gotta find a new job first. I think I can do it. |
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| It keeps getting worse each day. =[ I'm mad sick too. Which blows. |
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| Same shit, different day. I'm giving up slowly. But I just mostly feel numb. And anxious. Just plain not happy. At least we're friends. I might make a livejournal, but I'm not so sure. |
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| Everything is just so weird. I feel like I have to puke. I wish I can say something. I really do. But if I speak, I know it will hurt me. |
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| I can't help that feeling, the feeling that I miss him. It sucks. He doesn't even see what's in front of him. I wish I didn't have to feel this way. I'm happy, but on the inside, just confused and upset. It's not like I'm real sad, just really lonely. I wish he could realize..I mean, I think he knows, but at the same time, just wants to ignore that so he won't hurt me. |
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